I decided: I would start reading a book that my 19-year-old recommended to me when she was 17, The Book Thief by Markus Zusak. I started it last night and wondered what took me so long. Then, I got inspired and wrote a list of all the books I’ve meant to read, but never did - such as Watership Down, which I’ve been planning to read since I was 13 (and still own the copy of the book my dad gave me then.)
I’d like to be a clutter-less person. Recently, as some of you know, I began to clean and gut my house. (I’ve now moved towards dark and creepy garage territory. It’s super rough.)
Also, how’s this: I’d like to be a person with a calm and well-behaved rescue dog. I hope to be able to say the following to someone else one day: From my own experience, I can tell you this: you have to stick in there with your dog, don’t give up on him, get a trainer if need be.
Yes, I’d like to be able to say that to someone else with full authority!
So… I have a dog trainer coming over next week.
Do you see what I’m getting at?
I worked out last night when I didn’t want to.
I made a salad when I didn’t want to.
Why?
Because I have things that I want to be or want to continue to be:
Strong, healthy, aging well.
It’s a serious challenge sometimes.
Well-read, uncluttered, with a dog who doesn’t act like an asshole.
Bite-size chunks. That’s my new advice to myself.
Work out with weights, 6 days a week, for just 20 minutes.
Walk or run everyday.
Make a salad with what I have on hand.
Teach the dog: Off!
Go through another bin of stuff in the garage. (Scared.)
We were gone for a few days earlier this week and when I got back, I noticed my house felt rather spacious and uncluttered. I recognized the small success. I told myself: Good job Cory, I can see and feel the difference.
I read, I eat well, I exercise, I train the dog. I let go of what I don’t need. Box by box.
(By the way- here’s a tip:
It’s hard to do anything when you’re in crisis mode.
Let yourself be in crisis until you’re not anymore.
Then you can clean your garage.
Not that I know anything about that.)
I go back so far to start.
The copy of Watershed Down I’ve had since I was 13
the one I always wanted to read
is no different from
the inner emotional work
I always wanted to sort out
is no different from
acknowledging we need support with the dog
is no different from
waking up early
and writing the blog.
my close friend has the cutest rescue dog I have ever seen. Her name is Jimi after Hendrix. When people say, your dog should be in movies we say thank you but now we are working on her manners. Once worked up she cannot be calmed, not even after training, more training. Part of the answer was to put her in a dog walking pack, 4 hours, three times weekly. There is always a solution, you just might not like it. Like so many solutions. P.S. our new garage solution is, everyone who comes over has to take something.
gritty and honest and sweet - all wrapped into one!