I just read something so awesome. A woman wrote on her own personal Substack: “For complete transparency, I heart all my own posts, I’ve doubted myself long enough.”
That’s where I am in life. Metaphorically at this juncture in my life, I am hearting all my own posts.
A funny thing happened yesterday. I had released a “sneak peek” of my new single Healer to longtime fans on my mailing list. Shortly after I sent it out I felt a feeling of dread wash over me. It was so heavy. Like one of those things they drape over you when you get an X-ray. The feeling was oh-so-familiar, filled with fear (specifically in shades of skepticism, dread and nausea.) After about 20 minutes of walking around in that, someone else arrived in the space. It was the me who bravely picked up the guitar again about 6 months ago in a desperate attempt to process and heal a very tough few years. It was the me that ended up writing an album of raw and deeply personal songs. It was the me that’s been showing up here on this blog and doling out the backstory, even when it felt like no one was listening (expect my parents.) That part of me stood up in front of the trash-talker, pointed to the door and said: “Thanks. We’re all good here.”
In the past, I let the fear get to me.
At some point, I always did.
And what happens when you don’t?
…Space for things to grow without assumption or force.
Space for exploration.
Space for experience.
Just….space.
When there’s no presumption, things just are filled with intention and its momentum.
I set ‘em up, I knock ‘em down.
I can. I will. I do.
For the end and for the beginning.
When you get it, you get it.
And so here we are. …..
Healer is coming out on October 1st! It’s a big deal!
Pre-save it now on Spotify so you can hear it the minute it drops!
I’ll be back here to share about this song and all the songs as they come tumbling out to form my brand new upcoming album: Amethyst.
I’m so excited.
XO
C
You are inspiring me, again, this morning brave woman! 💖
Wow!