Maybe I've Made It.

thoughts on expertise

This week “Courage + Kale” reached 100 followers!

I started this publication out of a need to share. Share what I know. Share what I don’t know. This is exactly what I did for most of my life with my music. I had a deep yearning to give words and sound to my emotions- those I understood and those I struggled with. I sought truth. I sought a way out and a way in. My song Practice is one of my favorites because it touches on so many of the things I still experience and sit with. Within the song, one of my favorite quotes “If you are going through hell, keep going.” (Winston Churchill)

Truth is, for years and years there was a part of me that felt like I didn’t deserve to be noticed. I’m convinced that misconception is what kept me under in the music business - part of me always felt I wasn’t worthy enough. (I couldn’t own it.)

I seemed to carry that buried belief along with me through becoming a yoga teacher, and eventually a personal trainer. Until one day about 4 years ago I realized I was really f-ing tired of looking at myself through that “not good enough” prism. I sat down and started to look at the websites of very successful yoga instructors and personal trainers and noticed something interesting: these people weren’t selling yoga or personal training, they were selling themselves. They were selling their unique insight, knowledge, experience and perspective. They were selling what separated them from the pack. And they were selling it with authority.

For the first time in my life, it dawned on me that I wasn’t in need of being something “more.” I was already a complete and total expert with over 20 hard-earned years of professional experience in the field of health (not to mention a lifetime of deep self-introspection and inner work!) Once I began to approach my offerings with that realization (and attitude) my business suddenly started to grow and for the first time in my life I became financially stable.

And so I bring myself back to the beginning of this publication. Eight months ago I thought no one would read it. I wrote anyway. Today I have 100 subscribers. Sometimes it’s a challenge, sometimes I wonder what the purpose is. Mostly, I keep writing.

I write about my journey, my joys, my inspirations, and share offerings from my 20 years of professional experience as a health coach. I write about struggle, too. Threads from my past and sometimes within my day-to-day life. I focus everything I write through the lens of health and healing- from the outside in and the inside out.

I suppose I write from my expertise. But actually, I am just sharing what I’m drawn to share. Looking back on my life, it’s all I’ve ever done.

Thanks for being here.
xoxo