I think my biggest challenge as an artist is balancing drive with presence. In the past, I was all drive. Like an ultramarathoner, I pushed- always trying to get further as fast as possible. It’s an exhausting way to live and I burned myself to a crisp for many years. I was like a little burnt piece of toast on legs.
I don’t know if it’s family life, hard-earned wisdom, or simply that my body will no longer tolerate neglect - but pushing won’t work for me anymore. I must take on the recording of the album and the release of the songs with a pause and a breath.
In my new song “Aspects” I sing:
It’s time to break up with your old self
she’s not even real
she’s a ghost.
Past incarnations of your wonderful self can be broken up with. It’s ok. After all, it’s just patterns we’re talking about. Every moment is a new opportunity to choose which version of yourself you would like to present from.
I write, I practice, I remind myself what I do is valuable for me and my evolution and continue on. It all reminds me of this fave quote of mine by Samuel Beckett : I can’t go on, I’ll go on. (A little melodramatic perhaps but, let’s go with it.)
Images of this week include:
1. Afternoon espresso.
2. Amazing succulent from my mom’s house.
3. Looking out from the workout room.
4. In the studio with bassist and longtime friend Dean Dinning (yes, from good ol’ Toad the Wet Sprocket) - and my trusty producer Thom drinking his coffee in the background.
5. Snacks with my sweet Olivia.
6. Cosmos from the garden (the flower that weaves its simpleness into an important song on my upcoming album...)
Endnotes: We are getting close everyday to the single release of my song “Healer.” I am SO excited! It will be available for pre-save on all streaming services by Oct. 1.
AND….Reminder for my upcoming show at Roy in SB, Thurs Oct 1. 7:30. Come sit at the bar or make a reservation for dinner!
See you there!
🎶🤸🎶